Author Archives: ahiddibah

June 20, 2019 I played cabin mom this weekend with Pat’s son Michael and his four friends. My friend Jody accompanied me on this trip. I wasn’t sure how the trip would play out. I didn’t think there would be any problems and there weren’t. When Michael asked me to cook for them, I askedContinue reading “Cabin Mom”

June 06, 2019   A few hours ago, I found out my friend Pat Beatty passed away from a heart attack. He died on his birthday. He was 52.   Pat was just a cool dude. He always had a smile and something to say. Sometimes it was a compliment sometimes it was a wiseContinue reading “My Friend Pat”

June 10, 2019 I’ve always paid my bills on time. I’ve always been good about paying my bills period. I’ve gotten in over my head on credit cards a couple of times in my life. Doug was the money guy. He always figured a way to make things happen. I just always trusted in himContinue reading “Money troubles”

Nine years ago, I lost my best friend. Nine years ago, I lost my way. Nine years ago, I became a different person. The trauma of losing my brother has greatly impacted the person I have become. Doug said he saw me become a shell of myself. In the beginning that was true. I witheredContinue reading “Nine years ago”

April 17, 2019   It’s been a month since I’ve had a cigarette. A week and a half since I’ve had some nicotine. I have gained five pounds. My diet has gone to shit. I have craved nothing but sweets and fried food and have given into most of those cravings.   I have triedContinue reading “Nicotine No More”

April 14, 2019   GAME OF THRONES DAY! Series finale. The culmination of 8 years of television history. 9 years of waiting to see how the story ends.   I’ve always had a special relationship with television and movies. It’s always had the power to suck me in and transport me places. Maybe it’s myContinue reading “My Time with TV”

03/25/2019   I think about the pivotal moments in my life. The ones where the fork in the road appeared and the path could have drastically changed. Mr. Frank Neils helped changed that path for me. It changed my life.   At 17, I found myself pregnant and an almost drop out from high school.Continue reading “Thank you, Mr. Neils”

March 18, 2019   I’m feeling the tug of an old, hidden secret I buried over twenty-five years ago. It resurfaced this August. It is very common in young teens mostly but in adults as well. According to Crissestext.org “People who hurt themselves most often start as teens or young adults, with adolescent rates ofContinue reading “Putting Away Sharp Objects”

03/02/2019   When I was 8 or 9 years old, my uncle Evan sexually abused me. I locked it away and didn’t tell anyone about it until I was 15 years old.   Most summers, my brother Tom and I spent July at my mother’s parent’s home in Colorado Springs, Colorado. We would sit onContinue reading “Survivor’s Tale”

2/28/2019 Some years are tougher than others. Last week I was a wreck in anticipation of this coming day, my brother’s birthday. Today, I woke up early, cried, and posted some pics on Facebook. Then had a cup of coffee. My memory swam as I thought about all the things my brother has missed thisContinue reading “Reflection on Birthday Celebration 46”