Author Archives: ahiddibah

After staying up all night with a successful party under the hat we retired in the morning light to bed after a sunrise fire. We had a discussion about the behavior of a friend of mine and how it made him feel uncomfortable with her feelings toward me. I’m naive. I cried a little. HeContinue reading “Dog Tried to Kill Me”

So I fall all the time. I usually contain that situation to my home. Sometimes that involves drinking but most times it involves just walking and chewing gum. This week I ate shit in the quad in front of students during passing period. I was wearing a heeled boot. I thought the boot felt weirdContinue reading “Ate Shit”

I’ve always felt emotions deeper than I feel the “normal” person does. I cry more quickly. I used to be fast to anger. But mostly I have always loved with a deep passion that can either make or break a person. It can also make or break me. Love is what’s on my mind. IContinue reading “My Big Feelings”

Rick Just finished watching cobra Kai. I think you would have given it a dog and a half. I give it two dogs. Maybe you would have given it two dogs. I don’t know. All I know is that you missed it. No more Johnny. No more hating on Sam. No more cheering on fightContinue reading “Cobra Kai”

I knew better than to put in writing anything positive about my love life. It would just jinx it. And so…. Yeah. Pretty sure there’s no boyfriend. Ugh… Fucking just……. UGH!!!

I haven’t had a so called “boyfriend” in years. But Tom has stated that he wants to be my boyfriend and me to be his girlfriend. I don’t know what all that entails other than no extra side pieces which I have cut off. I write this as he snores in my bed. After aContinue reading “New boyfriend”

I lost my best friend. The pain has been excruciating. I haven’t felt grief like this since my brother died. The depth of my sorrow washed over me. I have been inconsolable. I questioned the universe, my faith, the meaning of life…my life. I immediately began to self-medicate to dull the agony in my heart.Continue reading “Rick”

Twenty days ago I had this stifling feeling in my gut. I twitched my nose at sounds and audibly groaned at things that never really bothered me. My skin prickled at my students laughing and poking fun at each other. I just wanted to yell at them to shut the hell up, but I didn’t.Continue reading “Irritable Shift to Mania”

I’ve been trying to figure out how I wanted to write this. I’m still processing it but I am compelled to share my story as I always am. I have shared my dating dilemmas with you but this goes beyond that. This was, is, a confusing experience. After meeting a man, Jeff, we became intimate.Continue reading “No Consent is Sexual Assault”

As I laid in bed, my little Yorkie, Bella, snuggled up next to me. In that moment, I was triggered back to the hours after my brother’s passing. Her tiny body and weight leaned into me and the memory washed over me. Tears welled in my eyes. And I just took a deep breath. IContinue reading “Triggered Tearful Moment”