Author Archives: ahiddibah

I sent a draft of a man’s chapter of my work in progress to them back in December. A draft of how I felt I needed to express my feelings after our break up. Well. Today, he read the chapter. I had deleted his number. Email. Everything. Apparently. He reached out in January but IContinue reading “Old face emerges.”

Over the years as a teacher, I’ve had “The Talk” with kids of all backgrounds and different grades from 3rd grade to 8th grade about the N word. To be clear, just as I am with my students, the first N word is the word nigger. The second N word is the word Nigga. FirstContinue reading “The N Word”

Friendships blossom in different ways. Season. Reason. Lifetime. That’s the saying. I make all kinds of friends. Most of them last a lifetime. Many of my friendships go but we pick up after long periods of time without talking and rejoice at a text or a phone call out of the blue. Maybe even aContinue reading “Thelma & Louise”

After staying up all night with a successful party under the hat we retired in the morning light to bed after a sunrise fire. We had a discussion about the behavior of a friend of mine and how it made him feel uncomfortable with her feelings toward me. I’m naive. I cried a little. HeContinue reading “Dog Tried to Kill Me”

So I fall all the time. I usually contain that situation to my home. Sometimes that involves drinking but most times it involves just walking and chewing gum. This week I ate shit in the quad in front of students during passing period. I was wearing a heeled boot. I thought the boot felt weirdContinue reading “Ate Shit”

I’ve always felt emotions deeper than I feel the “normal” person does. I cry more quickly. I used to be fast to anger. But mostly I have always loved with a deep passion that can either make or break a person. It can also make or break me. Love is what’s on my mind. IContinue reading “My Big Feelings”

Rick Just finished watching cobra Kai. I think you would have given it a dog and a half. I give it two dogs. Maybe you would have given it two dogs. I don’t know. All I know is that you missed it. No more Johnny. No more hating on Sam. No more cheering on fightContinue reading “Cobra Kai”

I knew better than to put in writing anything positive about my love life. It would just jinx it. And so…. Yeah. Pretty sure there’s no boyfriend. Ugh… Fucking just……. UGH!!!

I haven’t had a so called “boyfriend” in years. But Tom has stated that he wants to be my boyfriend and me to be his girlfriend. I don’t know what all that entails other than no extra side pieces which I have cut off. I write this as he snores in my bed. After aContinue reading “New boyfriend”

I lost my best friend. The pain has been excruciating. I haven’t felt grief like this since my brother died. The depth of my sorrow washed over me. I have been inconsolable. I questioned the universe, my faith, the meaning of life…my life. I immediately began to self-medicate to dull the agony in my heart.Continue reading “Rick”