Author Archives: ahiddibah

The loss of a student is never easy. The last student I’ve lost in the past couple of years have been to suicide. They have been tragic and shook me to the core and brought up the feelings and trauma of losing my brother. I lost another student 10 days ago to cancer. The sweetestContinue reading “Losing a Student”

I can only speak to my experience to being bipolar. This should come to light during this month and every month, to be honest. Living with bipolar can be challenging some days. Some days I forget I am mentally ill. Other days it wallops me into submission and I know I am afflicted. Then there’sContinue reading “May is Mental Health Awareness Month”

As always, the day before fills me with more dread than the actual day it seems. But the day came. Today is here. I woke up slowly and sighed. I was sluggish. I put on the only shirt I have of Tom’s. A navy blue worn t-shirt. It has a pocket on the left breastContinue reading “11 Years Without Him”

Well, we passed the two week weirdo test. He didn’t ghost me. LOL Mellow Man has turned out to be just that. Mellow and a surprise. I have surprised myself with something I didn’t expect to find in someone. An actual human being capable of compassion, respect, comfort, passion, and fun. In two weeks, MellowContinue reading “Dating Life Update”

My life has not changed a whole lot being a published author. I missed the birthday date of publication of my book. It was May 1, 2020, mid pandemic. There was no book press. There was no accolades. No book read. Just a quiet press of a button that marked the printing of a bookContinue reading “Happy Belated Birthday Yes, I Took My Meds”

SOOOO. New dating app. New pool of dating applicates. Bumble so far has been the best dating app out there. I wish I had tried it sooner. Within a day I have several conversations going with guys who didn’t seem completely out there. I have currently been on several dates with Mellow Man since lastContinue reading “Joining Bumble”

I got a “ding” on my phone yesterday coming out of my meltdown. It was from WordPress saying my readership was up 120%. I was curious. Why would that be? It couldn’t possibly from my dating post. Only a select few actually read my blog. I’d say maybe 10 people. But… Someone read my entireContinue reading “Thank You Dear Reader”

You’d think I’d learn but no I keep on keeping on. I’m a glutton for punishment. Maybe that is something I should have confessed last week during confession. The first OKC guy ghosted me after saying he would text me in the morning. That didn’t go anywhere. Now after two weeks of dating, let’s callContinue reading “Busted by OKC Again…”

Its been a journey. 281 days since my surgery but I’ve finally hit onederland. Onederland is when your weight falls into the one hundreds. I’m finally there. I’m excited. I’m one pound away from being 110 pounds down since my surgery. This has been a journey for sure. I have followed a strict diet. IContinue reading “Onederland”

I upped my meds last week. I haven’t been sleeping for the past month really. It’s been hit or miss. Four hours here. Six hours there. No real pattern except no real sleep. I’ve been going to bed at eight or nine and popping wide eyed a few hours later with my mind having noContinue reading “Obsessive Mania”