Author Archives: ahiddibah

So much for a sprint, it was definitely a marathon of writing. NaNoWriMo is National Novel Writing Month. A challenge for authors to finish their novels in the month of November with a 50K word count as a goal. You log your word count every day and monitor your progress. To stay on target youContinue reading “NaNoWriMo”

I am a cutter. I have been since I was 12 years old. I don’t know how or why I stopped, or when I finally stopped. I think it was during college. I went many years without any self-harm. But with a vengeance, it came back a few years ago and I found myself cuttingContinue reading “Covering Scars”

Twenty-eight years ago I became a mom. I was 17 years old. Homecoming was the next day. I obviously was going to miss it. My birthday was also the next day. Patrick came screaming into the world at 10:54 at night. 54 was his dad’s jersey number. We all thought that was a funny coincidence.Continue reading “Happy Birthday, Patrick #28”

24 hours is all it takes for a mood swing to take you down. Even after all this time I find it hard to take the downward shift from fifth gear to a grinding stop. I don’t know if I was riding high. I was feeling rather euphoric. I met a man. I am veryContinue reading “Sudden Swing”

Update on dating.. There has been a flurry of dates. Some good and some busts. But what I have come to see is that a chunk of these “men” are emotionally unavailable. I had a date with a guy who wasn’t a bad kisser. As we know, this is my big next step. Next conversationContinue reading “The Emotional Unavailability of Men”

I have been on multiple dates. I can’t even count. None of them are worth writing about. Some seem to want to be just texting buddies. Others just want FWB. Or as it’s called now. Fun and casual. Lol I don’t know what the dating world has in store for me but I’m just movingContinue reading “Update on the dating scene…”

MKB was a bust. There was no spark. Kiss was awful. Tried three times. Nothing. He looked like his pictures. Sort of. He seemed shorter than he said. His general appearance was not what I expected. Unlike our endless texting, we had nothing to say in person. It was awkward. He had a good timeContinue reading “MKB was a Bust but…”

So the newest fella is MKB. Michael Keaton Batman. We have yet to meet face to face. We have however texted nonstop and talked on the phone for hours at a time. We have similar interests in all things that are nerdy and he let me also be Batman. I get to be the ChristianContinue reading “Meet MKB”

After two and a half months my tumble into the dating world with Mellow Man is over. We started out hot and heavy and he pulled back and it just got worse. Our communication started to lack and slack. When we were together everything seemed great. But when we were apart there was extreme distance.Continue reading “It’s Over”

The loss of a student is never easy. The last student I’ve lost in the past couple of years have been to suicide. They have been tragic and shook me to the core and brought up the feelings and trauma of losing my brother. I lost another student 10 days ago to cancer. The sweetestContinue reading “Losing a Student”