Author Archives: ahiddibah

July 21, 2019   This past school year I had an interesting dichotomy of classes. I teach special education English and reading for middle school. Due to the bipolar, I had an episode that prevented me from starting the year with my students.   I got a note from the sub that said my periodContinue reading “Dichotomy of Classes”

July 20, 2019   One of the things as student council advisor that I wanted to instill in my students was that helping others was something to strive for. Our food drive service project grew each year. Our motto was, “Kids helping kids.”   Our food drive filled another school’s food pantry. The other middleContinue reading “Food Drive”

July 16, 2019   I have never felt more bipolar than in the last couple of days. I have truly felt the swing from manic to depression in a few days. One day everything was bright and sunny. I thought I was going to write the next best thing in literature. I thought it wasContinue reading “Hard Hit”

July 14, 2019   For the most part, I have accepted that I will have to take medicine for the rest of my life.   There are days when I have absolutely no issue with this. I eat my dinner and take my pills, then settle in for the evening.   Then, there are otherContinue reading “Medication Noncompliance”

July 13, 2019   When I was 8 years old, my family forgot my birthday, sort of.   My birthday party had been held on a Saturday. My birthday fell on a Wednesday the following week. I had friends and family over. It was a nice party. Cake and presents, a real nice party.  Continue reading “Birthday Blues”

July 12, 2019   I thought I had food poisoning.   My husband and I had opted for McDonald’s for dinner. It was an easy fix. Happy Meal for the little one. I had a Big Mac meal and a McFlurry. My husband also had a Big Mac. Patrick wasn’t with us. I don’t knowContinue reading “Appendectomy Gone Wrong”

July 12, 2019   I have always been a sensitive person. I was a sensitive child. I was prone to getting my feelings hurt easily. As an adult with bipolar, my emotions are intensified and I have to constantly gauge whether or not my emotion is an accurate reaction to a situation or is itContinue reading “Therapy Needed, Mood Swing on The Rise”

July 11, 2019 During the year John Kerry was the Democratic candidate for president, I was still very much into politics. I think it was more simple back then. I remember watching the town hall debate and having a few drinks after work. Patrick came in and reminded me that his friend was having aContinue reading “Broken Bones and Procrastination”

July 11, 2019   I am disappointed to say that I have succumbed to the habit of smoking again. I had wondered what would happen when I had I high-stress situation, what would happen. I did not deal with the stress very well.   Everything happened all too fast. The wheels of finance were spinning.Continue reading “Nicotine Again”

July 11, 2019 Since 2009, I have spent my summers in Duck Creek, Utah at my friend Pat’s cabin. It has been a work in progress over the past ten years. It is not just a single story one bedroom cabin with an outhouse. It is a mansion of a place. It has a wraparoundContinue reading “Cabin Building”